More about me and my healing journey.

I grew up in a lot of narcisistic abuse. There I said it. And it took me a long time to admit that. I didn’t want to hurt the people involved. I loved them and I had spent my whole life learning how to protect them and their egos. If you can relate then, you know this too. What it caused in me was a lifetime of self doubt. Constant worry that I wasn’t enough or doing enough. I felt drawn to the same types of people that would use and abuse me. It felt normal and comfortable to accept mistreatment and disrespect. I was used to being punished for having my own voice and opinion. I couldn’t think for myself and thought that who I am was, well, was worthless. I felt dependent on other people to tell me what to do because it was programmed in me to do so. I was taught that I wasn’t enough and would never be.

I felt like my worth and value came from being who everyone else wanted me to be. I hated it.

This all left me circling and lost for years. Not knowing what to do or how to get out of it. I had mistrust for others but I didn’t trust myself either. I couldn’t show up authentically. I didn’t even know how to. I hadn’t spend the years in self discovery and self development that leads you to discoverying who you are. My life up until that point (28 yr. old) was living for other people. Doing what they wanted me to do, even to the detriment of myself sometimes.

All of this changed when I started to learn how to set boundaries. Real boundaries. Emotional and physical boundaries with other people. I started to go on the journey of not what to think but what I thought. What had my life taught me up until this point. Who was I and who did I want to be? These were all quesitons that I got to go on the journey and figure out for myself. I found self fulfillment and empowerment there. I learned that my life could reflect who I was and what I wanted it to be, not just to serve others. I learned that I could be free.

Now, I am not afraid to guard my time and energy. I am not afriad to be seen and put myself out there, because I know who she is now. I have a healthy sense of self and boundaries that I never thought possible. And now? Now, I teach women, just like you just how to do these things in their lives too. It was so healing and transformational for me I couldn’t help but share this with other people, with other women who had the same realizations as me.

Now I get to live free and to have a say in my life, my well being and who I am. I create, build and lead out of this place as well. Now I see the glass half full of potential. I see what my life could be, not what it has to be. Not living the life that I was stuck in, not building for me.

Now, I create resources and teachings and free video to talk about healing and health past this kind of abuse and how to rebuild your self image, your self esteem and so much more.